Educating your kids yourself is hard work. It’s a job that I’ve never taken lightly. In fact, it’s a job that I originally didn’t want to do.
But I found myself with a 1st grader who was waking up every morning with tummy aches from the stress of attending a school where he was being bullied and whose academic needs were not being met.
My husband and I had talked about homeschooling before our oldest son ever attended school. It had always been a possibility. Now it seemed like our only option. Numerous phone calls and in person meetings with the teacher, as well as volunteering at the school had done nothing to help the situation.
It wasn’t getting better, but worse. And my son was learning to hate anything that had to do with learning.
Let me tell you something---doing 2nd grade with a bright kid is a breeze.
That was 6 years ago.
Doing 8th, 4th, and 3rd grade and having a precocious 4-year-old to occupy is a very different story. Teaching my kids is a full-time job. The only trouble is that it’s not my only “job,” and I just can’t seem to get it all done. Things have had to give.
The seams are showing. I’m not loving what I’m doing.
Of course, into each life a little rain must fall and all that. But I’m completely stressed and ain’t nobody happy when Mama’s like that.
I’m telling you this because I want you to know that it’s ok. Everyone has those moments when they need to reevaluate what they are doing.
Everyone who homeschools sometimes has doubts or even considers packing it in. At least I think they do…people aren’t always open about that.
We choose to learn at home because that’s what is right for our family at this time but when that dynamic doesn’t work well for someone involved, it needs to be changed.
So we’re pondering and praying over the situation. We’re going to try some different things.
Right now I’m working on what needs to be changed from within, but we may find that that is not enough. We’re fully committed to offering our children the very best education we can from the available resources, but academics are not the only consideration (and not even the most important one). We’re looking at the whole child, the whole Mom, the whole family.
It may well be that it will be better for everyone if one person attends school while others stay at home. Or something like that.
I wouldn’t like it if that had to happen, it wouldn’t really be my dream situation, but I would be ok with it if I knew it was what was best for us as a family.
All that to say, we’re having a rough time at the moment. There’s no blame to be placed, but some changes need to be made.
One of those changes you are going to see---I’m going to be cutting way back on curriculum reviews. In fact, I may stop doing them altogether or just do one or two long-term projects.
I’ve come to realize that having to fit in all these deadlines is having too much of an impact on our life of learning and my own “free” time. We’ve been blessed to have the opportunity to try out so many different things that we couldn’t otherwise afford, but the personal cost has been more than I anticipated.
I have a number of reviews coming up over the next couple of months that I’m already committed to, but the reviews are going to become an occasional “fun extra” after that.
As for the rest, we’ll see how things go. One day at a time.